plz dont use my art without asking etc..
once again who knows if these colors look ok, but i spent like an hour painstakingly calibrating this monitor using my prior art as a reference so it should be okay maybe???
will i ever draw anything other than alex mother fucknig mercer the answer is no sorry, my entire life is unlimited alex works
few things as an artist freak me out more than color differences on monitors. i use someone else’s monitor and i’m like “holy shit is that how it looks to everyone else. oh my god my colors are atrocious. all of my art is terrible, i’ve been using awful colors for the past three years and I HAVE TO CHANGE MY ENTIRE THEME RIGHT NOW”
but like, the colors on my laptop were pretty consistent compared to other devices? so its probably just this monitor im borrowing. still. i had a pretty big moment of horror for a second there
especially because i have indeed had that happen for real. i look at some of my really old pixel art (like, “not posted on here” old) and im like “fuck… why are the colors so dull and bad…”. and the reason is Monitors. and, you know, me being an incompetent boob with color picking back then, but also monitors.
I’m looking forward to seeing how hilariously awful this looks once I’m not on a borrowed computer with a monitor that severely fucks up colors. I apologize in advance for this probably being a gaudy mess on a monitor that isn’t shit (sorry mom, your monitor’s shit)
i can’t believe i actually have to put 50px of useless whitespace on either side of my picture to prevent tumblr from distorting the shit out of it. why can’t you let us turn off automatic resizing? why is tumblr so fucking shitty at adding features people actually want? we just don’t know
anyway, maya pillaged a bandit camp for eridium. and then set it on fire just for kicks. bad maya no biscuit
WELL my computer is kind of, uh, having some Issues. we’re not sure what yet, but maybe possibly hard drive failure or memory failure. so it may take me a little while to either replace what is wrong or get a new computer entirely if necessary. hopefully not long
since my computer is going Very Slowly right now (and BSOD’d once, possibly due to having too many things running) you can probably guess that it’s not super practical to run hugely memory-intensive programs for long periods of time. yknow. like art programs, which are notoriously memory-intensive. also im busy hurriedly backing up all my shit
so… you might not see much out of me for a little while. not that ive been posting much in general, but yeah. hope i get it fixed soon. heres the last thing i was working on
here’s a tip for doing isometric pixel art: don’t. don’t do it. its awful
Alex. Alex, no. Bad Alex
if i had any idea what my gender actually is it would probably be easier to pick a pronoun, maybe
my gender can best be described as reaching into the bottom of a pot that’s too dark to see into. and like, something brushes your hand, but it’s kind of slippery and impossible to grab like some asshole left their jello mold in this pot or something. and you can’t really get a feel for what it is
and people are like “well does it feel like a girl?” and im like, well, no, and then theyre like “well does it feel like a guy?” and i was like ‘maybe’ for awhile but then i realized nope that wasn’t it either. i have felt no real identification with any of the terms ive found. i just. dont know what it is, or anything about it. its just kind of there. this mystery item, at the bottom of a pot, that you know nothing about except “it exists”
this is literally the best metaphor ive found. i dont really know how to explain it. all i know is I Have Dysphoria In Some Places And Would Like To Transition. a good summary of my feelings is the following image
gender is basically like trying to pin the tail on the donkey in 60 mph winds
i have literally never seen someone use a pronoun that long. unconventional “word pronouns” i’ve seen have just been relatively simple like kit/kits/kitself and i think those are just fine. that is what i was primarily referring to when i said “the silly ones” because people have called them silly a lot and somehow Degrading The Integrity Of Trans People, as if we aren’t already a massive joke to cis people no matter how “respectable” and cisheteronormative we try to make ourselves
like i think if you were to hypothetically make a pronoun as long as ‘nebulaself’ it is probably going to be unwieldy/inconvenient in speech but if that is what makes the person feel comfortable then like, i prioritize the comfort of trans people so i’d try to use it. and really it’s not like you’re going to be writing any speeches narrating this random hypothetical nb person’s actions any time soon where you’d have to say it relatively often, right?
a lot of people who use said word pronouns - despite the fact that they’re usually pretty short/simple, like bun/bun/bunself, kit/kits/kitself - often provide an alternate pronoun on their about page, like “this is something i am also comfortable with so you can use this too”. and those are probably closer to what you’re used to, like zie or neutral they or w/e. some even prefer you NOT use said word pronouns unless you’re close to them because they feel personal.
the only people i’ve seen use a pronoun set that was actually unwieldy or ridiculous to me were really transparent anti-sjws trying to take the piss out of non-binary people
i ramble a bit about my pronouns from here down. short answer: he/him/his until further notice. if you are ever wondering if it has changed and you want to be sure of my Pronoun Status you can check my about page. if i did pick a new set i would probably(?) announce it here though.
also periodic reminder i am trans and non-binary, many of my friends are trans and/or non-binary, many of my followers are trans and/or non-binary or otherwise lgbtqia
if you are against any of this, or
leave, lol. I don’t really want you following me or within a 30 mile radius of me or the people I care about
it’s been a while since I got some dude on this website yelling at me because he thinks I’m a heterophobe or a wacky shrill feminist who unjustly hates bronies or something. i wonder if that means i’m due for another one in my reblogs sometime soon
I did recently get in a brief, private tiff with some brony on my personal blog, maybe that satisfied my quota for the month
rick also has the added bonus of being Easy Mode Boyfriend. no expensive/seasonal items or cooking required when it comes to gifts. just “hi honey here’s two tons of chicken feed i just bought from you *DUMP*”